Medical Marijuana: The First Time I Got High

Medical Marijuana: The First Time I Got High

So far, I’ve received three questions about medical marijuana via my contact form. All three were variations of: Does medical marijuana make you high? 

I’m answering this based on my personal experience with marijuana, just to be clear. What follows is NOT an answer to Does medical marijuana make one high? or Will medical marijuana make me high?

TL;DR answer: Yeah, sometimes.

The first three times I took medical cannabis, I used THC-infused Indica gummies. Each time I took one half of a gummy with food before bed, and I did not get high. The fourth time I took half a gummy on an empty stomach while ill (and probably pretty dehydrated) and I got high as fuck.

***

A short time ago, Dan and I traveled to Indiana for a funeral. I was sad, anxious about traveling with chronic pain and IBS, and (as usual) ignoring my body’s attempts to warn me to be kind to myself.

We were on the road at dinner time, which meant stopping for a bite along the way. I had a baked potato and a vanilla Frosty from Wendy’s. Maybe not the healthiest meal, nutritionally speaking. But at the time all I was hoping for was “not spicy” and “hopefully not tainted.”

A baked potato and vanilla shake seemed like my best options on a strip of road where burgers, onion rings, tacos, roast beef, chili, fried chicken, and 12-hour-old wilted salads were my other options.

We met up with family at the funeral home. I hugged my parents and extended family and took a seat at the back of the room, as close to the restroom as possible while still being present for the service.

Aside from my usual aches and pains and moderate vertigo when standing up, I made it through the service without incident. I hobbled down a few stairs to the parking lot, and we left for home.

The cramping didn’t start until we had been on the road home for about an hour. “Dan, you are officially being warned. Take the next exit where I can access a public restroom.” I clutched my gut and loosened my seat belt.

I prayed to no one in particular that I would make it. “Also, pull the car right up to the fucking door please.”

Dan obliged. I made it. As far as anyone else knew, I was just a regular traveler taking a break to answer the gentle (ha!) calls of nature.

(Funny story: when my IBS was at its absolute worst, I’d run to the bathroom at home, slam the door shut, and sing “Looks like we made it…” at the top of my lungs. A signal to Dan that things were going to be OK—not good, but OK—and a reminder to myself to laugh.)

We were back on the interstate. Home was less than an hour away. I sighed, relieved.

***

Three blocks from our house, I cried out in pain. The cramps were back. I took rhythmic breaths through clenched teeth. “I need to get home. Now.”

Dan gave the car a little more gas. We were doing 45 mph on a 25 mph street, coming up on a red light.

Turn green. Turn green. Turn green. FUCKING TURN GREEN ALREADY.

“Dammit!” I yelled as Dan brought the car to a halt at the intersection. He was doing the best he could.

Hee hee. Hoo Hoo. Hee hee. Hoo hoo.

We were moving again, but there was a four-way stop a few hundred feet in front of us. Cars were queued, waiting for their turn. There was no way Dan could just roll through this one.

“I’m not going to make it,” I said.

We were literally a block from home, and I started crying.

***

I showered and cleaned up on my own. The only pair of dress pants I owned went in a garbage bag. I put on my pajamas and crawled into bed. Everything hurt, I was deeply embarrassed, and I was emotionally spent. I reached for the medical marijuana, knowing it would dull the sharp edges of my pain, calm my gut, and help me sleep—just like the first three times I had taken it.

***

Thirty minutes later I reached for the glass of water on the table beside me. “Why is my arm doing that?” I giggled.

“Doing what?” Dan asked.

“Look. I have a Go-Go-Gadget arm. It’s reaching too far and I can’t pick up the glass.”

“Oh my god. You are so stoned right now.”

***

“That is so cool,” I said. “When I close my eyes the things I think in my brain are cartoons!”

***

“What’s so funny now?” Dan asked.

“There are strings around my lips and in my cheeks. Someone is pulling them! I can’t make my face unsmile! Turn on Bob Ross!”

***

“Dan? I’m having really intense deja vu. Also, how many Modern Family episodes are they showing tonight? Jesus.”

“This is still the first one.”

***

“I know why hippies are hippies. If we give mean people weed, they can love everyone too. Like I do.”

***

“Take a look! It’s in a book! A reading rainboooooooww!”

***

“Dan?”

“Yeah?”

“Why can’t everyone who’s sick have medical marijuana? I want everyone to have weed. I love weed.”

“Maybe one day.”

“Dan?”

“Yeah, Love?”

“Nothing hurts.”


NOTE: I have chosen not to take medical marijuana while I try to evaluate the effectiveness of the gabapentin the doctor just put me on. I still have a few posts in the queue, however.

Related: How to make crock pot cannabutter

Got My Illinois Medical Cannabis Card

Got My Illinois Medical Cannabis Card

It’s here! My Illinois medical cannabis card is here!

I went to the Medical Cannabis Outreach mobile clinic on August 13, 2016 for help with my application and fingerprinting, and I received my card in the mail on September 26, 2016.

That’s 44 days from start to finish.

I am relieved that marijuana is now available to me, particularly after fighting through some very difficult days in the past couple of weeks.

The plan is to write about my experiences, which promise to be enlightening. You see, not only will I be able to write about them from a patient perspective, but also as a new user.

That’s right, folks. Aside from a couple of contact highs in college, I have absolutely no experience with recreational marijuana. That’s because when I was growing up about all you could do was smoke the stuff, and that didn’t appeal to me. (For better or worse, no one ever offered me a brownie.)

Also, I had a very real fear of Satan, demon possession, jail and criminal records. So, yeah.

Anyway, my hope is that writing about using medical marijuana to treat my fibromyalgia will accomplish two things: 1.) opening a patient-to-patient dialogue that helps me and others discover what works, and 2.) showing non-patients on the fence about medical marijuana that it’s not something to fear.

Please feel free to use the comments section of any post or my contact form to ask questions along the way.

UPDATE: It wasn’t fibromyalgia. It’s a brain tumor.

You might also like this recipe for cannabutter and this one for cannabutter brownies.

Update: My Medical Cannabis Card Fundraising Campaign

I received a $40 donation for my medical cannabis card application, and that donation got me to 100% of my fundraising goal. Here’s my Go Fund Me campaign update:

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I have great news to report! This weekend I received the donation that got me to 100% of my fundraising goal.

I am excited and so very thankful to everyone that contributed, shared posts on social media, and offered words of encouragement.

When I first set up this campaign, I thought, “It’d sure would be helpful if I raised a couple hundred dollars.” I didn’t have any expectation that I would raise the full $685.

So much about my prolonged illness has felt like a fight — a fight with doctors, a fight with bill collectors, a fight with pain and insomnia, a fight with bad prescriptions, a fight to get out of bed in the morning, a fight against myself, a fight against the bureaucracy of the State of Illinois.

This $685 battle was one a bunch of other awesome people fought for me.

THANK YOU!

It might be a while before I have my card and am able to participate in the Illinois medical cannabis program. If you’d like to follow along with the rest of my progress, please connect with me on my blog:
http://www.emilysuess.com

The Perfectly Posh fundraiser continues until September 25, and proceeds will help me pay for dispensary purchases. (As you probably know, medical marijuana is not yet covered by insurance.) You can join the Facebook event. Joining the online event doesn’t obligate you to make a purchase, by the way. You can just lurk and check out the products that are available if you like.
https://www.facebook.com/events/885633958204043/

Thanks again to all of you.

Peace, love, medical dope!
Emily

Unfortunately, Sunday was a high pain day, which means that as a matter of course it was a low mental health day. So I don’t have energy to write much more right now. Stay tuned, though, because later in the week I hope to write about some things I learned from the MedX conference livestream.

Now, to make some weed butter!

Response from Rep. Rodney Davis Re: Medical Marijuana

Response from Rep. Rodney Davis Re: Medical Marijuana

Just dropping in on a Saturday to say that Rodney Davis did eventually respond to my letter. For Senator Durbin’s response and more background, see the post: Make Medical Marijuana Legal in the US: An Open Letter to Senator Dick Durbin.

That Davis (or his staffer, rather) decided to go with “Mr.” is amusing, but basically of no import. Much as I hate to agree with Davis, I gotta say this part gets my approval:

“I believe we shouldn’t handicap the doctor patient relationship and that doctors should be able to provide the best possible medicines for their patients on a case by case basis – including medicinal marijuana.”

Wish he had the same hands-off approach to uterii, but that’s another topic for another day.

I’m also glad to hear that he voted in favor of prohibiting the U.S. Department of Justice from interfering with state medical marijuana laws. But it’s still necessary to outright legalize medical marijuana at the federal level, since a major problem with the discrepancy between state and federal laws prevents doctors and administrators from recommending cannabis to patients.

They can pass legislation take away rights in a heartbeat, but granting them or giving them back is next to impossible. Why is that, I wonder?

September 9, 2016
Mr. Emily Suess
XXXX X XXXXXXX XX
XXXXXX, IL XXXXX-XXXXDear Mr. Suess,Thank you for contacting me regarding legislation related to marijuana.  It is important that I hear from constituents in my district and I appreciate the time you took to share your thoughts.

As your member of Congress, I have supported efforts to allow industrial hemp production.  Additionally, I voted in favor of an amendment in the 113th Congress that would prohibit the U.S. Department of Justice from interfering with state medical marijuana laws and I cosponsored H.R. 5226, a bill that would remove therapeutic hemp and cannabidoil from the definition of marijuana, and allow it to be used to treat children and individuals with epilepsy.

Furthermore, too many of our veterans are suffering from PTSD and sadly, an unacceptably high number of our veterans have taken their own lives.  I believe we shouldn’t handicap the doctor patient relationship and that doctors should be able to provide the best possible medicines for their patients on a case by case basis – including medicinal marijuana.

Know that I appreciate your comments regarding marijuana legislation and I will keep them in mind if legislation regarding this issue comes to a vote in the full House of Representatives.

Please let me know if my office can be of assistance to you in the future.  If you would like to stay informed on what is happening in the 13th District, I encourage you to sign up to receive my e-newsletter by visiting https://rodneydavis.house.gov/contact/newsletter.  It is truly an honor to serve you in the United States Congress.

Sincerely,

Rodney Davis
Member of Congress

RD/JB
What If You Could Use Medical Marijuana AND Keep Your Job?

What If You Could Use Medical Marijuana AND Keep Your Job?

wine-humorJust some venting about what people think of medical marijuana users. Don’t mind me.

One week from today will be my three-year anniversary as a technical writer with my employer. It’s significant because at three years my short-term disability insurance pays 100% of my salary if I need to be away from work for a while. Until that day, it only pays 60%.

I don’t think I’ll need to take advantage of that benefit (is it really a benefit if the premiums come out of my paycheck?) since I’m applying to get my medical cannabis card, but knowing I will have that safety net is a huge relief.

I’m lucky to have a job that allows remote work, but some days my symptoms are so bad I can’t pull a sentence together. All I can do is lie in bed and wait for normal brain function to return.

And let me tell you, when you’re that sick and you’re the sole source of income for the household, the last thing you need is a battle with anxiety over what happens if the fibro flare exceeds the number of sick days you have banked.

The second to last thing you need is a judgmental asshole telling you that what you’re really looking for isn’t a way to keep your job, but for the State of Illinois to enable your desire to be a lazy pothead who smokes marijuana.

Dear unnamed person who offers unsolicited advice about medical marijuana,

Don’t you have a bad-day-in-the-carpool-line headache to treat with a bottle of red wine?

Love,
Me

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Update: After I got my card, I stopped caring what other people have to say about it. It helps.

Make Medical Marijuana Legal in the US: An Open Letter to Senator Dick Durbin

durbinEarlier this week I sent an email to my Senator, Dick Durbin, asking him to support Senator Elizabeth Warren’s effort to slow the opioid epidemic with medical cannabis. This is my reply to his reply.

Following my open letter, you’ll find the verbatim response I received from his office on Tuesday, my address withheld so any would-be trolls have to at least do a little homework first.

(I also wrote to Senator Mark Kirk and Representative Rodney Davis. The former has not replied; the latter only wrote to tell me he received my correspondence.)

Open Letter to Senator Durbin

August 31, 2016

Dear Senator Durbin,

First of all, thank you for serving as my senator. I had to reply to your reply, because there are still a couple of points I must make regarding your role in passing reasonable federal marijuana laws.

Overall the tone of your email seems dismissive, which I just don’t get. You wrote:

“Under federal law, it is illegal to manufacture, sell, or possess marijuana.”

I promise I’m not trying to be a smartass, but that’s kind of the point. My assessment of the current situation is that the federal law is crap, and since you get paid $174,000 a year to write and vote on laws, well, I wanted to put a bug in your ear. If you’re going to represent me—and the 82% of Illinoisans who agree with me on this issue—you have to hear from us, right?

I can show up at one of your offices to discuss the matter if that’s more effective, but I have a debilitating medical condition which makes traveling extremely problematic. Please don’t make me do that. (Coincidentally, that debilitating condition also qualifies me for medical marijuana under the State of Illinois’ Medical Cannabis Pilot Program.)

The bottom line is that medical marijuana needs to be legal at the federal level.

Marijuana for general use isn’t really a part of my agenda at the moment, but since you mentioned that you “oppose the legalization of marijuana for general use,” I think now is a good time to remind you that your job is to represent the nearly 13 million people who live in Illinois.

We get to vote our conscience. You get to represent us.

While legalization proponents only make up about 45% of the State’s population at the moment, the margins are shrinking. You should definitely keep an eye on that.

Something else in your reply bothers me. You wrote, “I will keep your views in mind if the Senate considers the use of medical marijuana as an alternative pain relief option for opioid addiction treatment.” Seriously. Where’s your initiative?

The Beltway might be a cesspool, Senator, but you can still make waves.

Sincerely,

Emily Suess


Senator Durbin’s Form Letter

August 30, 2016

Ms. Emily Suess
XXXX X XXXXXXX XX
XXXXX, IL XXXXX-XXXX

Dear Ms. Suess:

Thank you for contacting me about the use of medical marijuana and the nation’s opioid epidemic.  I appreciate hearing from you.

Under federal law, it is illegal to manufacture, sell, or possess marijuana.  While the states have similar prohibitions, some states have exempted from their prohibitions the use of the drug purely for medicinal purposes.  I oppose the legalization of marijuana for general use.  At the same time, I believe that marijuana may have medical applications when prescribed by a doctor in specific cases.

The opioid addiction epidemic reaches every corner of our society.  There is no town too small or suburb too wealthy to avoid this crisis.  Since 1999, the number of drug overdose deaths in America has more than doubled.  In Illinois, there were 1,652 overdose-related deaths in 2014, an increase of almost 29 percent since 2010.

I am a cosponsor the Comprehensive Addiction and Recovery Act, which would provide a community-based response to heroin and opioid addiction that includes law enforcement, the criminal justice system, public health institutions, and the recovery support system.  This bill passed the Senate in March 2016, and would authorize grants to states to train law enforcement agencies and first responders how to use naloxone, an overdose reversal medication.

I will keep your views in mind if the Senate considers the use of medical marijuana as an alternative pain relief option for opioid addiction treatment.

Thank you for contacting me.  Please feel free to keep in touch.

Sincerely,

Richard J. Durbin
United States Senator

RJD/jw

 

Mom, Dad, I Want to Use Weed

Mom, Dad, I Want to Use Weed

My parents (above) stayed with us overnight on their way to La Porte, Indiana for a family reunion, and then they were out the door to finish their trip first thing this morning. Despite the short visit, there was time to mention that I was applying for my medical marijuana card.

Both of them are concerned about my health and my treatments. They see how hard it is for me just to walk and understand that sometimes when my fibromyalgia flares up I can’t even be bothered to comb my hair after a shower.

They even witnessed how Cymbalta (prescribed by a previous doctor to treat my fibro) made me batshit crazy. I was so emotionally unstable on Cymbalta that I hyperventilated and broke out in hysterical tears in front of them during a discussion about policing in the US.

But back to giving them the news.

Mom and Dad are not easily ruffled, so there was no overreaction. In fact my mother has surprised me this year by saying “Go Bernie Sanders” during a discussion about the primaries, buying a Meghan Trainor CD, and agreeing that marijuana should be legal.

That’s a step beyond saying marijuana should be a controlled substance available to patients by prescription. She thinks it should be handled like alcohol. I wish everyone was as reasonable as my mother.

Anyway, when I told them what I was doing, my dad—the most stoic person I know—didn’t say anything. I don’t know where he stands on the issue. But I do know that even if he disagrees with me he’s not judging my choices, particularly when those choices are legal.

My mom’s reaction was to nod, as if she knew what I was going to say before I said it. Maybe she did know, since I have been publicly fundraising and sharing related links on Facebook for a while now.

Speaking of my GoFundMe campaign. If you’re a supporter, please consider sharing the link with your followers on social media or making a small donation, and help me raise another $100 by September 1. 

Cop Eats Pot Brownies, Thinks He’s Dying

Cop Eats Pot Brownies, Thinks He’s Dying

Oh my God, you guys. If you haven’t seen this yet, you must. MUST!

All of this talk about marijuana and getting my medical cannabis card reminded me: back in 2006, a Dearborn, MI cop called 911 after he and his wife used confiscated marijuana to make pot brownies.

And he though he’d overdosed.

And he was convinced he was dying.

And then someone awesome turned the actual 911 call into this little animated gem.

You’re welcome.

Resources for Getting Your Illinois Medical Cannabis Card

Resources for Getting Your Illinois Medical Cannabis Card

It’s gray and soggy here in Urbana today. I wrapped up work a little bit ago, and I was barely able to lift my butt out of my desk chair. Fibromyalgia’s pain and stiffness are intensified by about a bajillion when icky weather settles in.

I wish I had my card.

But since I don’t yet, the next best thing is to do whatever small bit I can to help other people get theirs. So, here we go…

Medical Cannabis Outreach

This is the group helping me get all my ducks in a row. If you have questions about the Illinois Compassionate Use of Marijuana Pilot Program, would like information about the medical benefits of THC and CBD, want help preparing your application, or need assistance at any step of the process, talk to these people. They are friendly and knowledgeable. You can also follow them on Facebook.

Salveo Health and Wellness

I don’t know much about much yet when it comes to marijuana, medical or otherwise. So I’ve been asking people for their opinions. This dispensary was recommended to me by another patient who already has his card. He said it’s worth the drive for better prices and selection. Plus the people here are great at answering any questions you might have. You can find Salveo Heath and Wellness on Facebook too.

Licensed Medical Cannabis Dispensaries in Illinois

If that’s too far to drive, you can purchase cannabis at any licensed dispensary in Illinois. (Note: you have to choose a dispensary as part of the application process.) As the program expands, more are likely to be added to this list. Check with the Illinois Department of Public Health to make sure you have the most recent list.

Illinois Medical Cannabis Patient Registry Program

You can apply through the State’s website on your own if you like. You can also see which conditions qualify for the medical cannabis program, locate fingerprint vendors, and get information on fees, among other things.

Find a Doctor: Medical Cannabis Alliance of Illinois

Having trouble finding a doctor in Illinois who isn’t anti-cannabis? Type in your zip code and search.

Medical Cannabis Alliance of Illinois Website

This Springfield-based Advocacy group makes it easy for you to contact the Governor and other elected officials, gives you tips for talking to your doctor about the medical cannabis pilot program in Illinois, provides resources for patients and physicians, and even has helpful infographics you can read and share.

Cannabis Patient Advocacy Coalition

CPAC is a “patient advocacy group committed to making medical cannabis an acceptable and accessible treatment option for Illinois patients.” Read about current barriers to care, sign the petition, reach out to lawmakers, and join the coalition.

If you’d like to see a resource added to this page, let me know in the comments!

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